DOUBT DEMONS.
Those pesky thoughts that paralyze us with fear and keep us from believing in
ourselves. They won’t leave me alone. I have a new book out, my first Indie
novel, and it seems to be doing well. I’m getting lots of support from friends
like Sally Berneathy and Sharon Sala, both of whom have known me for years and
say this is my best book to date. Have another submitted to Carina Press, first in a series of modern Native American
mysteries. I hope if it sells that they let me keep the title…Cherokee Justice.
Things in
general are going pretty well, so why is it I can’t relax and enjoy the ride?
Why am I second-guessing my choices and wondering if I’m in the wrong business?
I have two
theories. The first might be silly, but I think I’m spooked because it’s just
my butt on the line with the Indie books I plan on publishing. I have first
date jitters. What if this doesn’t work out? What if ‘he’ kisses me—what if he
doesn’t? Can I take the rejection? I’m dressed well enough. My cover artist,
Linda Kage of Kage Creations provided a most excellent cover! My breath (words)
must not stink, because I have my first review, 5 stars, and I’ve never met the
woman who gave it.
So…WTH, ya know?
Here comes the second theory. I’ve been so wrapped up with personal issues like
aging parents, a son who might need to relocate for a new job (I live with him,
have for over a decade), so it’s been a while since I’ve been with any
publisher for a while. This time it’s like getting back into the dating scene
while waiting on being asked to dance, wondering if I’ll have something decent
to wear or how long it’ll take. I’m not getting any younger.
Then I look at
that last lovely cover. How can I not breathe easily while staring at a scene
like that and knowing what my protagonist had to do to get to the place where
she could…just…breathe?
Doesn’t matter
what we do, if it’s new it probably carries with it a certain amount of fear,
excitement, trepidation, awe, and eventually understanding. How we cope is our
choice.
I think I’ll
have another cup of coffee and kick back awhile, not worry so much.
Sunny Bob
For more info about the latest book:
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00SA9TQTY
5 comments:
Sunny/Bobbie, that cover is beautiful. And the title - I LOVE it. Wishing you many happy sales - and many long, relaxing breaths. ;)
Hugs and CONGRATULATIONS!!! All will be fine. Wishing you many sales.
Great blog, love the cover and here's to a deluge of sales. Enjoy your new date.
I suffer from similar self-doubt on a regular basis. Sounds like your dance card is quite full, though - congrats. Awesome cover, too.
Wynter, Elise, Rita, and Anne Marie, THANK YOU. Sorry I'm late responding. Appreciate the good wishes, and right back at you!
Sunny
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